i forgot how to cry.

i can leak tons of tears and snot and heave an occasional sob. what i can't do is that uncontrollable crying jag that comes with the feeling that your world is being torn to pieces. i can't do that kind of crying where you're gasping for air and your hiccups create a life form of their own and you're wailing like a baby banshee even though it sounds retarded. that kind of crying sucks the life out of you but it's also soothing. therapeutic. you cry out all your misery and sadness in the form of tears, and then everything might not be okay but you feel relieved.

i can't do that and it sucks. like all my tears are stuck inside of me.

typed in "utd" into google chrome
"ut direct" popped up instead

typed in "utd registration" into google
google asked me "do you mean ut registration"

sadness. 

HAHA one of my old new years resolutions was "stop being a bitch"

my resolution every year...

god. of course i would start using xanga again when i'm about to take a final.

i miss xanga days.

attractive